An Awful Budget And Not respecting my Wishes. (Lack of Decency)

Hello Dear Reader,

I am glad that you have dropped by today.  Your thoughts and input are very valuable to me. This is even more true for the fact is I am mostly in my room at this time. The winter months are coming and soon I will not be able to go to the park to work or commune with people.  I so enjoy going to the park after supper.  This year I haven't gone out as much as the past but still, it is enjoyable.  All this to say I am glad you are here to lend an ear.


Note:
the following article and the notes afterward are written very quickly. I am using them to brainstorm for ideas. I think the first thing to do is to get the ideas down on the computer because sometimes it takes a while for me to get organized. Once the blueprint s done, I will use the information here as a springboard for other articles. 

so here is my budget to live off as it stands now (per month):

(as of August 2019) Income:
Last Resort Financial Assistance	$497.00
Family Allowance from Inheritance	$1200.00
Investment Income	$300.00
Retirement Pension	$75.00
Solidarity Tax Credit	$35.00
Total	$2107.00

Expenses:
Room and Board	$860.00
Repayment of Line of Credit	$50.00
Provincial Tax	$137.00
Internet and Apple Phone	$168.00
Bus Pass	$80.00
Total	$1,295.00
Total Income -Total Expenses=	$ 812.00

With the $812.00 I have to pay for
Any furniture
Complete dentist costs
Eyeglasses and most eye costs
All food
Cleaning supplies
Clothing, shoes, etc.
Any household repairs
Air conditioner
Appliances, coffee machine, lights, etc.
pharmaceuticals
Work Supplies: Paper, pen, camera,
Archival Supplies to store my art
Office supplies for my papers: files, filling cabinets,

Additional Yearly Costs
Bookkeeping app	$148.00
Internet Security	$100.00
Weight Loss Program	$99.00 all paid for (Life membership)
Meditation	$ 68.00
Entertainment	No money available
Vacation	No money available
Improving social skills	No money available
Socializing	No money available

Current Issues:
I have been forced not to speak in my residence (and now I cannot stand up for myself at all). The first thing that is stated is to get rid of the cellphone. (why? I do not need it). If this happens it will be very difficult to reach me. It will also make it much more difficult to organize my personal papers and my artwork.  This will leave me all the more isolated and less able to work.  (and more of a victim to abusers of my isolation)

I am told to buy my own food because I am ill from the food that is served. (like pre-diabetic).  I cannot eat the food that I can afford to buy according to my social income. Either I cannot bring myself to eat it because it tastes bad or super processed bad quality tv dinner type food. We are talking about vegetables without any flavoring. Which we have at the home. Forget the turnips and parsnips and taters and stuff. They serve it here and I am severely ill from it. I also have no complete kitchen to prepare things with. We are expected to supply our own pots and pans (there is no oven). And anything expensive is not treated respectfully since the communal kitchen is unlocked and not verywell guarded.

I am collecting a whole bunch of religious articles. When we spoke I said I like jewelry so this is what these people have.  I am busy arranging and cataloging them. the work is infinitely slow.  Any ay I expect to happen what has happened before when a team of social workers found out I had saved some jewelry in case of trouble. Wave after wave, they came and took absolutely everything and for this was placed in a transitional home for the mentally ill. Time after time I broke down and time after time I was beaten.

everything I do, Everything I save is at risk for the same problem. A bunch of unfeeling people (with sterling qualifications in philanthropy and making bread for others than the likes of me) who do not give a damn or respect for your wishes (severely and brutally so) will come in and take away

absolutely everything and leave me a life of even more severe ugliness.   A question: Does the order that runs the place I live in believe that people should have access to any will, any freedom or any money at all. that they should deny everything they have been taught a lifetime.  And another thought.  Where the same humanitarians (incognito) who took away the jewelry int he first place because they feel that the righteous thing for everyone is not to wear it at all. (that is just a point of view, and still not mine) they and I have never been so ugly.

So what am I to do.

Each day I am more confined to my little room.  What little chance I had to improve my living arrangements elsewhere is gone with the increasing social isolation.

I asked the Lose it App which has helped me manage my pre-diabetic problem, what to do. they do not answer.